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Zerfall
02:25
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Lukas Song
04:38
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First of all I want to thank you
For all the things you've said
And all the things you've shown to me
You pulled me up from the abyss
And the hell that I was in
Caught and lost inside my head
I had lost hope and my perspective
You showed me how to live again
You were so kind to me
And held me in your arms
When I needed you most
You showed me how to love again
Face to face and I can’t tell you
What you mean to me
Heart to heart but I can’t reach you
You feel so far away
As it seems my interpretation
Differs from what it really was
But the way you looked at me
I thought it so honest and pure
I didn't feel lost anymore
Only in your eyes
You touched and changed my heart
Like no one ever could before
All in the blink of an eye
I am constantly torn
Between telling myself to calm down
And asking what if I'm not good enough?
Face to face and I can’t tell you
What you mean to me
Heart to heart but I can’t reach you
You feel so far away
Whenever I think of you
My heart is racing but I am paralysed
I want to say how I feel
About you
About us
But the words get stuck in my throat
And I struggle to breathe
I won't be the only one for you
I never would have been
I won't say I hate seeing you with them
If it makes you happy I'll just smile
Knowing this was never what you wanted anyway
It was only what I needed
Walk your way as I walk mine
And hope to see you from time to time
I just hope you won't forget me
And how much you mean to me
Although I won't forget you
I need to carry on
If I want to live again
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3. |
No Windows No Doors
04:09
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Your absence still follows me around
Burning letters, throwing out the things, that reminded me of you
Lonely in a room, with no windows with no doors
I can't escape
Pretending I'm fine
Pretending it's alright
That I don't care
And I don't miss you anymore
It's not only the reminder of us two
It's the reminder of a time
When dreams were true
When I believed (When I believed)
I could manage and get over you
Your presence still lingers in the room
Open windows, open doors, still I’m choking on the gloom
Shoving furniture around trying to drive away your ghost
You just won't leave
They only talk about
How the story ends
But no one told me
What would happen afterwards
Cause after the end
You walked your way and moved on
While I was left behind
Stuck in place
Unable to follow you
You left this place
And took a piece of me with you
A piece I can never get back again
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4. |
Arcadia
04:24
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My eyes are heavy, one more bottle for me
It's been another night, and the bottom is all I see.
I've been looking at your picture, in a feeble attempt to feel
I have started to question if this face is still even real
Come bleed me dry
Bleed out the anguish in my veins
Come watch me numb myself
The only substitute is pain
Counting the bottles I've emptied, flinging them towards the stars
Counting the days as I wither, counting the scars
There's no beauty in sorrow, there's relief in the pills
I've witnessed my heart go hollow, I've lived through the ills
Come bleed me dry!
Watch me numb myself!
Come say goodbye!
As I intoxicate!
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5. |
Pieces
04:02
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I’ve lost the feeling
I’ve lost the count of days gone by
How am I supposed to heal when I can’t feel time?
I’m being swallowed by uncertainty
And spit out by my resentment for myself
Before it fades into smoke and fog again
It’s moments like this
When I can see clearly
When I realise what has become of me
I feel like all that’s left
Is an empty shell of someone who has tried to play the game and lost
My memories are but fractions
Floating around without connection
Without bond, without coherence
I feel the urge to piece them back together
But this is a puzzle
Where the pieces disappear
Once you put them in
I barely can remember
Nothing feels alright
I promise you
I promise you I’ve tried
I awake anew
In every moment
And don’t know how I got there
I promise you I’ve tried
I barely can remember
Nothing feels alright
I promise you
I promise you I’ve tried
I awake anew
In every moment
And don’t know how I got there
I promise you I’ve tried
I’ve lost the feeling
I’ve lost the count of days gone by
How am I supposed to heal when I can’t feel time?
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6. |
Haze
04:36
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Halfway past, halfway there
So many words I've said
So many yet to say
All the things that I regret
All those that I yet will
The days I lived
The ones that I forgot
Will I ever get them back?
The days I live to see
The ones not known to me
Will I ever meet them?
The years behind, the years ahead
It scares me not to know
How much is left
How much will I remember in the end
I can't say if I was happy
Will I be in the end?
How can I tell what is real,
Or is it all in my head?
Will it all disappear,
With my decaying flesh?
One day my body leaves me
Staring in the void
Helplessly I
Fade away
I am now but I will never be again
I can only see myself being a burden
The only question left
When does it start
Has it started yet
Is it already ending?
The emptiness I feel
Is starting to expand
It swallows all the pride
And consumes what’s left
Of the joy that I remember
It numbs the pain
And interweaves with what remains
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Void
01:44
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8. |
Casualty
04:46
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My discomfort is so plain to see
I know that nobody cares to talk 'bout these walls in me
I've been searching in the entropy for the longest time
But all I found was apathy and no reason why
Too indifferent to take a stand
The pills feel cold in my hand
I'm afraid to walk this path alone
But I can't let anyone in
and show them what lies within
Still, I'm scared to be left on my own
All these people filling up the room
I wonder if I can still recognize
all their faces
All these strangers lurking in the gloom
Will I feel better when they notice my presence
This burden upon me
Longing for relief
Reluctant but eager
To put this behind me
Confronting my demons
But denying the symptoms
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9. |
Dying Stars
03:30
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I find myself locked in a room with strangers
They’ve always been there, but their faces mean nothing to me
They don’t see me, just the mask I show to the world
The people talk with empty words about things that have become meaningless to me
I sit still and silent, desperately trying not to draw attention
I imitate a smile, reconstructing it from pieces of long lost memories
I’m impatiently waiting for that pleasant loneliness again
There is no place where I’m truly free
But it’s the one where I can be myself
Because no matter where I go
I‘m still caught in a cage, inside my own mind
With barricades that I built long ago
To protect myself from this devastating angst
I’m waking up in a room full of dead dreams and traces of nostalgia
Noises woke me up and they haunt me ever since
The night begins to fall
And the only thing that shines through the darkness
Is the light of the stars
But even they died aeons ago
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10. |
Ending Song
06:28
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This is the last part of the journey
The last part of their lives
I try to be the one to give them
The comfort that they need
A guiding hand to take
Helping them to understand
Where this path will lead
Some feel afraid
Some feel lost
Others can't find the strength to talk
But I am here for them
To tell them
You are not alone
When I walk along the corridors
From one room to the next
I can barely see the people around me
They all appear so hectic and blurred
Some of them when they scurry past me
Softly brush my wings
I don't know if they can see me
But they never seem to mind
For so long I've roamed these halls
Met far more people than I can count
Accompanied far more than they will ever know
Yet I haven't forgotten a single one
Even if they forgot themselves
When no one is left
To carry their memory
I'm the one to hold it dear
As short as it was
Their life meant everything
When it's time
And the end is nigh
Everyone greets it in their own ways
But despite how different they were
I remember them all the same
They may be too small to realise
How great the gift is that they got
Appreciating every moment
For as long as it lasts
And the fact that it's so fleeting
Makes it all the more valuable
When the whistling wind drowns their dimly shining lives
And carries their souls to the neverending
When the light fades from their eyes
And the transition is done
I don't weep for them
For I know what's yet to come
Am I the one to pass their judgement and to take them away
Or the one to guide them and to lead them on their way
You can call me what you like or take it as it is
Cause in the end there is no black and white, only peace
Their souls and their memories
I carry with me
From now till the end of time
The duty of bringing them home
Will forever be mine
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All of Mine Germany
We make really sad rock music
We are:
Manuel
Julian
Simon
Stadtfeld
Niclas
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