First of all I want to thank you
For all the things you've said
And all the things you've shown to me
You pulled me up from the abyss
And the hell that I was in
Caught and lost inside my head
I had lost hope and my perspective
You showed me how to live again

You were so kind to me
And held me in your arms
When I needed you most
You showed me how to love again

Face to face and I can’t tell you
What you mean to me
Heart to heart but I can’t reach you
You feel so far away

As it seems my interpretation
Differs from what it really was
But the way you looked at me
I thought it so honest and pure
I didn't feel lost anymore
Only in your eyes
You touched and changed my heart
Like no one ever could before
All in the blink of an eye

I am constantly torn
Between telling myself to calm down
And asking what if I'm not good enough?

Face to face and I can’t tell you
What you mean to me
Heart to heart but I can’t reach you
You feel so far away

Whenever I think of you
My heart is racing but I am paralysed
I want to say how I feel
About you
About us
But the words get stuck in my throat
And I struggle to breathe

I won't be the only one for you
I never would have been
I won't say I hate seeing you with them
If it makes you happy I'll just smile
Knowing this was never what you wanted anyway
It was only what I needed
Walk your way as I walk mine
And hope to see you from time to time
I just hope you won't forget me
And how much you mean to me
Although I won't forget you
I need to carry on
If I want to live again